I intend to put shame to this people

Time to be thankful.

I wanted to ‘shame’ this people. I intend to.

(inb4 takutlah teww pasal pos kau kutuk doktor sebab tu post ni.)

“Completely honest ObGyn”

At least the OG wanted to talk to the couple and explain his persuasion on C-section and his scare tactic towards natural birth.

LOL

If I had to do it all over again, I’d go to different hospital, talked to many ObGyns. There bound to be a caring one out there.

They Say

“If you were me, could you defend the given rights to all of man?”

(edit: March 6, 2014:

if you read this page or maybe not, that means you agree that you are reading this on your own free will. this is a PERSONAL story, true events, no holds barred. i will censor all the names again by my own preference, since you brave enough to take this old post i shared with a closed group and share outside of it, but no balls and tits to even remotely tell me i should censor them.

you can think whatever you want on your social media, i can think whatever i want. this is NOT a made-up story, or finding who is the victim, or to tarnish anyone’s reputation, be it your parents, your siblings, relatives, friends.

why you post it publicly?
– so that if i die, someone bound to get this page if i forgot to let them know. can you imagine not knowing ever? yes. ah okay.

why do you hate Dr S. and Dr. K?
– i don’t. but they would re-think how they treated me and others, should they remember me

why you hate the gomen hospital so much?
– i don’t. but i won’t go deep on that. you seems smart to jump into that by yourself.

kau MUSTI orang jenis taknak vaksin, percaya google and wikipedier, anak mati..padan muka.
– OMG..sedap mulut. vaksin atau tak, itu hak parents. aku bawak anak aku vaksin, tak pernah miss. apa kejadah kau ni, anti google? sumpah tak pernah guna google ke? kalau orang cam kau jenis guna google mmg confirm ok tapi utk aku tak? come on.

why you close comments? you sked issit? sked kitty fatty boo boo
– I just found out about auto closed comment in setting. i dunnolah about blogging blogging ni. i am so dumb. then i found it. then i was like wheeeeee i clickkkk wheeee.

you are one selfish prick! may God(s) curse you into the nothingness and your child become stupid!
– i know. but that is not so religious of you to say that. would u like people to say that to you?

by reading this, I assume you read this as well.

read at your own risk. i risk myself everyday to just to live.)

“If You Don’t Push Until 10, Your Baby Will Suffocate In The Birth Canal…”

“If You Don’t Push Until 10, Your Baby Will Suffocate In The Birth Canal…”

definitely my favourite website to read, apart from other things serious that makes my baby in the tummy frowns.

some of the comments are witty and true:

1.

What the hell? Apparently they don’t teach that babies get their oxygen from the cord until the baby is actually out at medical school. Seriously how do you graduate from even just high school without knowing these things?

2.

You always have to ask the question “how many adults do you know who haven’t been born?”

Works with a lot of stupid statements!

3. this what most mothers go through in malaysian govt hospital. mental note: need to hire lawyer if this shit happens.

This is mine. It was a brutal labour. I can’t get into too much detail as the doctor is being investigated by the medical board over my labour but I can tell you I was injected with medications against my will and wishes; the cord was clamped immediately, against my wishes; my hubby was yelled at when he asked if he was cutting in the right place; The doc and nurses preformed 2 pelvic exams without warning and against my will…to the point where I had to kick the doctor to get her to remove her hand; my water was broken against my wishes.

When crowning, I screamed quite loud in shock over how fast the pain came on. The doctor said: “Oh will you just stop. If you keep doing that you’re going to tear your perinium”. When I did tear and started screaming because the numbing needle for stitches hurt like hell she said “See. You shouldn’t have screamed now you can deal with the pain. It’s not that bad” There was more but I’d bore you all with it. Needless to say next baby is coming at home in the water with me pushing however the hell I want.

meeting with dr. k at ante natal clinic

last week, due to me simply blabbing at the KKIA to the doctor of being suicidal and my heart blood pressure keeps on climbing, i was admitted to Hospital SB, at the emergency birth ward.

i wish  i knew i was talking to a psychiatrist mo who was on duty, so i could keep my mouth shut and tell them what they want to hear.

fast forward to today and i had an appointment. i was late because i slept late. a female doctor in glasses ‘taunted’ me at the ANC that she could have just sent me back. muttering under her breath in english.

i told her “if you want me to go back, i have no problem whatsoever.”

she started to blame the KKIA for setting up the appointment and i told her it was the hospital itself who set it up. and i repeat again i’d be more than happy to ask my husband to drive me back home because at that point of time i was pretty agitated with her lack of professionalism, even after i apologise for being late for the appointment.

i wanted a birth plan of my own. you must have been thinking, why the fuck i want a birth plan in a hospital kerajaan for? because despite the slowness, how ‘full’ the hospital is since everyone from selangor mostly there, i would like to have a little faith that they care.

du bist was du bist a.k.a no holds barred

i am not here to create commotions, confusions.

just a normal homemaker, first time pregnant and in week 35 by now, in malaysia, ‘registered’ to give birth in a government hospital, hospital SB, because we can’t afford a semi-private or private ones.

i mostly write in small capital letters, unless my keyboard can automatically changed in in case. which can happen, if i use my tablet. it would be mixed in both bahasa malaysia and english.

the posts will not going to entertain you with pictures and animated gifs. mostly will be me venting, and telling everything and anything that happens.

some can be objective, some can be emotional as fuck. why? because i am pregnant, goddammit.

if i can’t put my thoughts into paper – or a digital paper such as this – i might go crazy.

names of the ob gyns and mo will be in initials, so if you know, then you know. if you don’t, just read it and think and then move along.

i am stressed a lot these days, and this is how i can calm down and collect myself. maybe my stories will be worth sharing. maybe you want to know how giving birth in a govt hospital really feels like.

because i am planning not to hide anything….much.